So this is going to be a much more personal blog post but you all know I love sharing my growth and lessons learned whether it be in my career and personal life, so here’s one that hopefully can resonate with some of you! This month has been a record of career highs and lows for me. If you guys didn’t see on my stories, I recently signed with my dream management agency! I didn’t think this would be something I would accomplish in 2019 but this along with so much of my “2019 GOALS” were crushed – even things I completely forgot I even wrote down!
Okay, also I’m not trying to brag here, and you all know that, I promise there’s a point and learning lesson to this.
Now of course, anyone would be SO stoked and in feeling so, would celebrate! So that’s exactly what I did. (Side note: it’s so important to celebrate small wins. Don’t be so hard on yourself, even if it’s something tiny, if you’re proud, whoop it up girl!) So during that week, a lot of great things were happening and I grew more and more confident BUT I did realize it wasn’t coming from the best place in my heart. There was an air about the confidence and I KNEW IT, I totally sensed it, but failed to check myself. Of course I didn’t say anything rude or do anything bad but I just knew my internal thoughts weren’t simply, “I’m very grateful and blessed, and I’m leaving it as just that”. I let it somewhat get to my head a little bit and it just wasn’t the humble type of confidence.
ONLY A WEEK LATER, sh*t hit the fan. I went from being on cloud 9 to feeling totally defeated. I’m not going to and wouldn’t disclose the reasons but long story boring, I could have totally played the blame/victim game and let brands dictate how I felt (unworthy, inadequate, unwanted) or I could have doubted my work ethic and told myself I’m not as good, I’m not doing my best. But instead, I decided to dial back and really asses the situation. One important lesson I have learned is that the OUTCOME of your sh*tty situation is DETERMINED solely by YOUR ATTITUDE. Even if it’s something so crappy, only you can determine the end result of everything.
My reflecting thoughts came to these conclusions: I wasn’t thanking God right away for all the blessings. As quickly as He can bestow all things amazing things upon you, he can just as quickly strip them all away. Also, I wasn’t being as consistent with my prayer journaling and scripture reading. As a result, I wasn’t letting God be the center of everything, instead, I let my successes cloud my attention and I let myself become the focus and I associated the reason why great things were happening to my flesh work.
So what’s the lesson learned here? 1. Always thank God first when great things happen. He is in control of everything! 2. Always be humble. You can totally be proud of your work but let it come from a good place. 3. Always remember that God is the big dawg, in all situations. We are his little babies that he will go to the ends to protect no matter what but he is someone we will always need. The flesh can accomplish much but with God, we can do even greater things! 4. The outcome of your situation is determined by your attitude! Choose whether you want to see the light in your situation and stay afloat with God or sink with your negative thoughts!
Did my 2019 end bad? Absolutely not! Although a rough week, I still can’t forget all the blessings I was given this year. How I look at it: my year ended with a big cherry on top. I learned a very important and valuable lesson that will be something pertinent to my career in the long run.
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